Stress, adaptation, external stimuli…..

He was found O'd in his office….

he couldn't take it anymore….

so he took his life….

to the world he was enviable…

Meet Dr. Ranjit…..

He's was a cardiologist…

at his prime, he was at the top of his game…

started out as a chemical engineer

but then realized that he couldn't serve at a higher level

a the age of 30, he met Aisha, a long-haired beautiful Mediterranean Nurse

Ranjit being of awkward character didn't know how to approach her

he asked her for coffee and talked about nanotechnology

she didn't mind

she was attracted to his wits and awkwardness….

fast forward 4 years later she was expecting Sandeep….

to the world he was successful…

a beautiful wife, a healthy son, a quarter million dollar salary

and a gigantic house on the hill…..Until…

Aisha's mum had a heart attack….

She was a CEO of a 20 employee firm

that sold business systems….

she fell in her kitchen making coffee….

the medics tried to resuscitate her…

it was too late….

this put a stake in Aisha's marriage…

she became withdrawn….

she pushed Ranjit away…

Ranjit decided to become a doctor…..

He made a personal commitment

No one in his family would die of a heart attack….

he too had started feeling his chest tighten….

all the money in the world couldn't bring his mother in law back

or get Aisha to live again….

she had died metaphorically with her mother

to keep his mind off things…

he joined the local university…

he was the oldest student in his class

his counterparts processed information faster

they remembered the medical terms faster…

But Ranjit was resilient….

Aisha filed for a divorce….

She blamed Ranjit….

for being selfish and going after his career…

she was still depressed from her mum's death….

Ranjit truly loved her…

but didn't know how to be there for her…

he focused his energies on Sandeep and his career

9 years from his ex-mother in law's death

he was in the ER as Dr. Ranjit…..

he worked long hours….

it affected Sandeep….

but it shattered the Doc…

on the one hand, he wanted to be the father he never had

on the other hand, he wanted to  

"save his patients"

internally he needed care…

he needed therapy…..

he needed counseling…..

but he thought he couldn't

because the world needed him more…..

and his ego was in the way….

who is going to give care to the caregiver….

The hospital wanted to extract as much utility from him….

he started "self-medicating"

first just to enhance his mood,

reduce the emotional stress…

then to maintain his mood…..

change the lens by which he experienced his patients

med school didn't prepare him

on how to pronounce his patients dead

and communicate the news to loved ones…..

their pain was his

and he blamed himself all the time….

he would occasionally attend the funerals….

he had become a part of their family….

this was the part he loathed the most…

opiates were the drug of choice 

Percocet his oxygen….

3 times a day like his meals

the dose slowly increased….

he needed more….

the world needed more of him….

so he thought….

he didn't know how to deal with demand…

he viewed himself as a failure….

he forgot relativity….

he wanted to save more lives and he did…

but he focused on the ones he lost….

those were the ones that affected him the most….

that morning he walked and greeted the nurses 

just like he had done for the last 15 years….

to the world, he was the happy doc….

to him, he was the failing functional junkie….

he wasn't thinking of Sandeep,

he wasn't thinking of all the lives he had saved

he just wanted to save more….

more is the vitamin to feeding the monster….

it's never satisfied….

his last patient passed away…

same age as Sandeep….

and that was his tipping point….

in his mind, he had lost Sandeep….

he took a greedy dose…

it slowed down his heart rate…..

before bringing it to a complete stop…..

while the buzzer was beeping for Dr. Ranjit…..to the ER

he fell right there on his desk…..

that's how he parted ways with planet earth…

again who is going to give care to the caregiver….

 

Stress is the silent killer….

it will kill more people than all the other causes combined

few talk about it…

less even acknowledge it….

it starts with the story….

the story becomes profound….

and stronger and deeper….

and the problem is that no one else knows…..

until it's too late….

just in line with mental depression….

it's easy for the world to say….

deal with it…..find a way….

for someone undergoing this…..

they need help….

just like every other disease….

yet it's frowned upon….

or mocked upon….

until it hits home…..

the only remedy I can prescribe….

is to seek professional help….

but the ones that need it the most…

are the ones providing care the most…

who will take care of the caregiver?

It's easy for me to tell you to change the narrative…

use a mantra….

have a close support group….

but for someone who is in that critical stage….

these are not viable options….

I honestly don't know what to tell you….

other than you can make a greater impact alive…

than dead…..

let your story be a testimony….

there are millions who will die and are dying right now

some will try and do as much destruction

as possible on their way out….

it's how they want to be remembered….

it's how they want to share their pain….

others will feel like they are a burden…..

and others feel like they aren't contributing…..

this constant narrative becomes genetic….

it shapes how your synapses fire….

drugs reconfigure and release the happy chemicals…

it's all an illusion through the MAOI's or SSRI's

(lengthen the effect of the mood)…

until the crash comes tumbling in….

and you feel worse way worse than you started…..

you are tougher than you think….

tougher than you know…..

what if we changed the internal conversation

before it became catastrophic….

that's exactly what my friend Alan is doing….

for more information…

reach out to him…

at info@festivaloflifeanddeath.org

we all can make a difference……

and hopefully, we will

never have to experience

the loss of DR. Ranjit again.


Lee Kariuki
Lee Kariuki

Systems and strategy. I grow businesses by simplifying them. What do your customers want, and what’s in their way? Simple right? Reach me at admin@leekariuki.com.